ive so many drafts so many that i feel like posting it up but i dont see a point.
i dont want people to even come here and think that why am i writing all this .
i guess i will let it stay in my heart forever.
im sick of seeing myself act this way , never thought i could do so much to myself .
im glad youre happy to see me being strong but sorry ive lied , never wanted to keep myself strong this way.
drowning myself with so much alcohol everyday just to keep my mind off everything .
Really am in need of a drinking partners , its no longer you guys anymore , i cant keep pestering people with my problems .

i know next time or in the future when ive completely moved on , i look back here in my silly blog and will find myself so childish and so immature in handling this puppylove r/s.
But do u understand that i dont see into the future , i dont have the power or mind to look far ahead but as far as i could now i try to hold it in my heart till the day comes and ive change.

Money was suppose to motivate me but work sucks nowadays , need to work harder please money roll please!

i need something light hearted to blog about.
Move eileen move!

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