MOVED MOVED MOVED. :D
Finally decide to put this away and move.

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i hate how things are falling now.
not emo anymore about G cause somehow , sometime we need to get over this.
like i said maybe being best friends are better off than having a relationship.

Hate how things are happening between our girlfriends.

I wish janice all the best with Mr.Gq and really my best wishes for this two , im waiting to be your best-lady for your weddding kay. Dont get so disappointed and lose hope in love as u see one by one close to you falling apart. understand all of us need to get through this period of life.

Chengtheng be strong , though i couldnt be there to help u and console you we need to be strong.
How coincidence that we all broke off and is going through this together. We always dont believe that the guy we love so much could do this to us , but the fact is guys are heartless when they break off / they seem to move on so easily and easier than we girls do but remember they're guys that's why.

Kailin lets hope u get over this sooon and how much i want to feel for u i became too numb about this issue call love and fuck love forever cause forever doesnt exist. Move on slowly take time too but u've been holding on for 1 year already and i believe u are moving on slowly.

Juliana we are just a call away dont bottle everything inside and as much as i want to tell u to move but i learn from you what devoted really means. 1 month of love could make u hold on to him for 3 years , i couldnt help but just salute your faithfulness. you will find the right one for you soon really.

Cheryl dont worry but lets just face it. the reason he gave was lame and stupid. enough of getting yourself hurt and sad get over it and u will find someone nice and love you more.

For myself constant remind myself that life should be live happier and not dwell on past . though its hard but time to take a break / tired to believe that love will make a person happier cause ultimately whatever given out there is no payback . Too many failed relationships , nothing is able to make me happy cause how can all my gfs be facing the same problem like i do . Need to stay strong for the sake of them . Need to .

love you all much . Please stay strong and im so worried for cheng now cause she is missing and she blogs about meeting us in heaven. Goddamn it , make me feel like dying also . It's killing us slowlyyyy!

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even this had to go . it holds way too much memories.
Will never be stupid to delete cause its too much , just maybe will move and find another space to write in ..

ytd was very irrational of me to not think of consquences and i just went ahead with it.
this time no more sorries cause maybe this is the reality we had to learn to accept.
usually wouldnt lose my cool this way but just had to burst cause of the harsh words used and it was a big whole dramama that all i remembered was hurling of nasty comments across the living rooom .

" dislike being in this " is what keeps me moving for now .
if i could re-do this all over , i will still choose to make friends with u guys not a regret , but regret for making things turn out this way will choose to hold our mutal love inside and carried on with being friends , i think im better off as a friend than a Gf.

for the last time i will be posting regarding us am going to throw everything aside and learn the word "control".

i will leave everyone and everything if things could be easier and simplified.

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ive so many drafts so many that i feel like posting it up but i dont see a point.
i dont want people to even come here and think that why am i writing all this .
i guess i will let it stay in my heart forever.
im sick of seeing myself act this way , never thought i could do so much to myself .
im glad youre happy to see me being strong but sorry ive lied , never wanted to keep myself strong this way.
drowning myself with so much alcohol everyday just to keep my mind off everything .
Really am in need of a drinking partners , its no longer you guys anymore , i cant keep pestering people with my problems .

i know next time or in the future when ive completely moved on , i look back here in my silly blog and will find myself so childish and so immature in handling this puppylove r/s.
But do u understand that i dont see into the future , i dont have the power or mind to look far ahead but as far as i could now i try to hold it in my heart till the day comes and ive change.

Money was suppose to motivate me but work sucks nowadays , need to work harder please money roll please!

i need something light hearted to blog about.
Move eileen move!

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i think i need to shift out of here and move to another blog.
no point i write here cause people will think that im just taking too hard .
a cyber space to pen down my thoughts .

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even if everyone thinks that im taking too hard for a breakup , i hope u know what my heart means and that is all it matters.
friends are good enough for me.
a timeframe is just letting me give it another try after changing.
it's not to bind you or me down /
all is does matter is when i look back when im older at least i tell myself ive tried and give my best shot.
life , no time and room for regrets & this is what i learn.

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am doing it quite well for the past 2 days.
so going to contd this wayy and letting go slowly.
i know he will be happy too.

Really want to be so thankful to these people .
either i bother them too much with my msges if not they were there to listen.
So much appreciation. (:
Juls.Kaikai.JaniceBaby.Jinlian.Zhenxu.Almy.Dini.jm& D.( who listened to me rant for the last time)

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